That’s right! Jack and I are extremely happy to announce that we will be bringing a tiny, little human into the world in January, oh my god!
Admittedly, initially, I had so many different thoughts and emotions going through my mind, as I’m sure every expectant mumma would have! But, soon enough, the feelings of excitement and joy were overwhelmingly the strongest!
Don’t get me wrong, this whole pregnancy thing hasn’t been plain sailing, no way Jose, not at all! A large portion of it has been fairly unglamorous(to say the least) and we’ve had my fair share of ups and downs.
I decided a couple of weeks ago that I really wanted to blog about my pregnancy and hopefully, about motherhood too! I’m still not too sure how I’d like to incorporate this new portion of my life into my blog, weekly posts? Monthly updates? I suppose I’ll just have to test the waters and see how it all goes, won’t I?!
For this first post, I wanted to sort of round up my first trimester and our experiences with everything so far!
Pretty much as soon as we found out that there was a teeny tiny little human growing inside me, I began to do my research. “what are the best pregnancy apps” “when do I need to visit my doctor” and so on. I’m not going to lie to anyone, initially, coming to terms with the fact that I would be having a baby was slightly hard. I didn’t feel as though I would be capable of carrying a child, let alone bringing one up. I didn’t think that I would be financially stable enough to give my child everything that it needs. I didn’t think I could do anything. I’m not sure if I hit a little bit of prenatal depression or if it was just my hormones being crazy, but at around week 5, I spend a solid weekend in bed, mostly crying and having what I can only describe as horrendous breakdowns.
Thankfully, these dark and awful feelings passed and I am so lucky to say that I have not fallen back to that low point again during the rest of my pregnancy. I know that prenatal depression can really destroy some women and make pregnancy and having a child so incredibly difficult, so I am so thankful that I started to feel better so quickly.
Of course, there have still been the odd hormonal blips here and there, but nothing as bad as it was at the beginning of my pregnancy. The only other thing mentally that I have been struggling with is my body image. I’ve always struggled to see myself as anything other than plain and frumpy. So now that I am actually gaining weight and my body is changing shape, it’s been a little difficult to process it all so quickly. This is one thing that now, fresh into my second trimester, has continued to play on my mind. I’m sure plenty of other women struggle with this same issue too and it is slowly passing.
P.S, the hormones have also broken me out about 2382739 times(lol, what pregnancy glow?) and made my boobs the size of melons, not even exaggerating, woo.
Emergency Hospital Visits
Thankfully, there has only been one late night drive to the hospital after I was laying in bed at around 10 and a half weeks, in what I can only describe as excruciating pain in my lower abdomen. Crying and crippled over in bed, Jack suggested that the best and only option we had was to go to the hospital. Terrified and in awful pain, I hoped in the car and of we went. The hospital isn’t too far away from our house but it was probably one of the longest car journeys of my life.
After several hours of waiting, blood test and internal examinations (totally not fun but totally not as bad as I had anticipated) and being told that there was a possibility I would need to go into surgery in the morning, we were finally sent home at 5am and told that everything was looking grand! The suspicion was that my pregnancy was actual ectopic, which is why the doctor was so worried, but thankfully, the blood tests showed that everything with baby was looking a-okay, but they booked me in for a scan at the early pregnancy unit for the following day anyway and luckily, the scan showed that everything looked okay in there too! Of course, it means that we still had no idea why I was in so much pain and still to this day we never found out what caused it! But I am more than thankful that we have a healthy little baby baking in there.
So as this post goes live, I am just over 15 weeks pregnant and the excitement has well and truly hit! The friends and family that we have already shared the news with have all been so supportive and happy for both Jack and I and I think my mum is on par excited as I am! I’m so excited to finally be able to write about my experiences on a weekly basis and share this amazing journey that I’m on with my blog!
We had our 12 weeks scan at 13 weeks and two days and it was so magical(yes I know, pass the bucket, I’m sure everyone says this but it really, really was!). Although we’d already seen baby on the monitor in the hospital a couple of weeks before, it was so amazing to see he/she(we’re yet to found out, eep!), moving around in there. We even got to hear the heartbeat! I probably sound like a mental woman but I swear I have the heartbeat on repeat in my brain now. I already can’t wait to meet him/her! Here’s to this wonderful adventure.
Let me know if you’ll be interested in reading my pregnancy posts and please also let me know if you’re expecting too! Please also leave links to your favourite mumma bloggers! For now, myself and my little bump are off for a bath!
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