Dear baby Corbett,
Today is January 25th, 2017. Today is officially your due date! 249 days ago, I had a funny feeling in my tummy.. the kind of feeling that I just couldn’t shake. So on the morning of Saturday May 21st, I trotted off to Boots to buy a very expensive little stick which I had to pee on, yuck I know. But yup, that’s right, I bought a pregnancy test!
Around twenty minutes later, I was in a bathroom eagerly awaiting the results.. I didn’t have to wait long, because within a couple of seconds, those little blue lines were rapidly starting to show through, staring me in the face in the same, burning way a puppy stares at you through the glass at the pet shop. Holy wow. Honestly, the thoughts, feelings and emotions that were shooting through my mind at that moment are a mix that I’m not sure I will ever be able to put into words for you.
I had your dad pick me up a couple of hours later. I got into the car and he instantly knew there was something hidden behind my eyes. So he asked me, “what’s up?” To which I sat there, paralysed for a few seconds, before the words, “I’m pregnant” fell out of my mouth into the air between us. I will never forget the look on his face.. it seemed as though his mouth and his eyes were growing in size in slow motion before I made him cry! I made your dad cry!
The drive home that afternoon was an odd one. Your dad and I exchanged few words, tears and smiles but not much more. Trying to digest this information was something that one day, when you’re old like your dad, you too will sit through and think, my god, mum was right(I’m always right), I can’t put this feeling into words!
On this day, you were the size of a tomato seed, do you know how teeny tiny that is? Well, apparently that’s 0.05inches long and I can’t even find a weight comparison for you.. so yes, you were pretty tiny. Trying to comprehend that you’d continue to grow and grow and grow for the next 249 days was pretty difficult at first, but it wasn’t long before you made yourself known!
I won’t bore you with all the symptoms that I had, but about six weeks later, just after our first proper midwife appointment, we had a bit of a scare! I had come home from work on a Wednesday and began to get awfully horrible pains in my tummy, right about where you were! Luckily, after a night in the hospital, it was noted that for now, everything was hunky dory, but for a good, incredibly scary five hours, we thought we were losing you.
Just short of 48 hours later, we got to see you for the first time at an ultrasound appointment! That, baby Corbett, was incredible! Being able to see your little heart flicker away in there and to see your teeny little body. You were still so small! You were just 4 and a half cm’s long, which apparently is the same size as a lime, check you out little man! Two weeks passed before we got to have another scan to see you and you had grown to 7 and half cm’s, so you were now the size of a small peach!
One thing that we still didn’t know at this point was if you were a little girl or a little boy! Your dad and I had a bet on with each other. I bet your dad £20 that you would be a boy and so he bet against me that you would be a girl! Well, if there’s one lesson to take away from this gamble, it’s that your mother is always right. This was the second time that I wish you could have seen your fathers face, it was a picture I tell ya! Oh and you now weighed 11oz! Chunk!
Now, we were pretty much just having to sit and wait for you to make your appearance! A few midwife appointments here and there but generally, just waiting. Preparing. Anticipating your arrival! We bought you so many clothes and blankets and literally hundreds of nappies! Your dad even built a cot that we were so kindly handed down from from one of his friends! Your nanny continued to bring you a present every time she came over to see us and your big cousin George even let you have some of his clothes that he didn’t fit into anymore!
And now I am sat here at home, feeling you squirming away in my tummy, with what little space you have left anyway, still waiting and anticipating your arrival. Your dad and I are more eager than ever to meet you now baby Corbett. So ready. I’m sure you know this already, but we love you. We already love you more than we ever thought possible! Any day now little one, any day.