Well, that’s a bit of a weird title isn’t it. If you’re a creative type, the chances are that you totally understand what I mean. I’m one of those really annoying people that will find inspiration wherever I go. I’m the friend that will stop to take a million photos every five minutes. My handbag is full of scraps of paper with little notes and reminders on and I own more notebooks than I ever thought humanly possible.
You’d think with all this inspiration and ideas floating around in my life that I’d be able to create content every single day, but sadly, this isn’t the case and I’ll tell you why.
Last week I had a really BIG idea, like business venture big. I’m super excited about it but I’ve also decided not to delve into it too much here on the blog until it’s closer to being finished. That’s besides the point though. The point is that I’ve now got so many plans and ideas for this project in my mind, that I’m feeling super overwhelmed by them. I’ve done the obvious thing here, which is write out all my ideas into notebooks, but I’m still feeling quite overwhelmed by it.
The next obvious thing you might think would be to.. not do it? But I really want to do this project. I say that it was last week that I had the idea, but it’s an idea that’s been in the back of my mind for about a year now. So the overwhelm isn’t being brought on by pressure or anything like that, so not doing it wouldn’t make me feel better.
As well as that, I’ve also been brain storming a whole load of blog content ideas. Yes, blogging is my hobby, but in the past 12 months it’s also become a source of income for me and my family. Of course, I’m super thankful for this, but I do sometimes worry that one day my content won’t be “viable” anymore or that no one will want to read it or work with me. So when it comes to actually writing blog posts, I can feel overwhelmed by all the ideas that I’ve pre thought out. I know that probably sounds backwards, but what I mean is that I that I struggle to pick one idea and go with it, because my brain is already thinking about the next piece of content.. and the next one.
The more I write on this topic, the more that I worry I’m coming across ungrateful. I’m very grateful to be in a position where my hobby can also contribute towards supporting my family financially. But I honestly think that being a creative person in this day and age is tougher than it’s ever been.
I don’t believe that my content is perfect, but I do believe that I am a perfectionist. Of course, everyone’s perception of perfection is different, but to me, whenever I put out content, it’s content that I have poured my heart and soul into. I think this is where my overwhelm stems from. The strive for perfection maybe? The desire to share things exactly how they are in my mind. It’s like when an artist draws a portrait, that’s what I want my writing to be like. A portrait of words. I want to share the stories and ideas from my mind, to the world, exactly how they appear in my brain.
I’ve already touched upon why giving up isn’t an option, but I can’t really tell you what my final thoughts are on this whole subject. I’d be lying if I said that I hadn’t thought about it, but it’s not what I want to do, I know that much for sure. You may or may not have noticed that I’ve sort of taking a back seat with blogging over the past week and that has certainly helped things. Long term, I’m not sure how exactly I’m going to fight this overwhelming feeling.
I’d love to know if you’ve ever felt overwhelmed by inspiration? What did you find helped you feel less overwhelmed? I’d love to know!